Thoughts before coffee


1. Magic is everywhere.  It’s an ocean of energy, glowing a kind of greenish purple.  It’s the tapestry that weaves and connects us.  It’s the stuff we’re made of and breathe in and have our sense of beingness in.  Often it’s spontaneous.

All people are born with the capacity to connect through it and direct it.  The only reason so many don’t do so consciously is because of the restraints they wear.  They don’t know themselves fully enough.  They are wearing psychological blinders.  Their thoughts are being managed by authority figures they respect.

Even so, our individual minds are part of a local collective which is part of endless one.  What the individual is impeded from doing on their own, the collective does as a whole, forming the shape of our world and the paradigms we live in.

The more an individual realizes their part in the greater whole, shucking the blinders imposed, the more they are capable of directing magic somewhat independently.
Some people are really good at that. I’ve even done it on such occasions as I do not have my emotions under control, which means magic/psi of an uncontrolled nature. Doing it on purpose isn’t so easy.

Despite being a fairly uninhibited person, I still have my hangups.  I haven’t even identified them all but I know they’re there.  I sure wish they’d get out of the way so I could fly at the very least. Would flight be an unreasonable thing to hope for?

Anyway, spellcraft is for controlling strands of otherwise wild magic. Since strong emotionally visualizations are necessary for a cast, the spell is pure poetry and emotion that works quite well if done eloquently, specifically, and is wholly felt.

2. I’ve made 4 Sims so far: Joel and Ampbreia Farris, which are patterned after Jeb and I, Enrique Iglesius, and Jennifer Lopez, which are patterned after the celebrities as well as I could for not knowing them personally. I could approximate everyone’s faces quite well, but you only get to give them 7 personality traits and some aspirations besides. What’s surprised me in all of these is that they develop other personality traits on their own. With Joel and Ampbreia, these unexpected traits made them more like us than I could ever have anticipated. I’m suspecting that the addend of aspirations and experience cause this to happen.

With Enrique… well, I hope he’s not too much like the real Enrique because he loves to put on rags and dumpster dive every time I take my eyes off him for a second. I go to see what he’s doing and there he is with nothing but his kicking legs sticking out a dumpster and garbage flying everywhere. There’s not option to tell him “STOP IT! YOU’RE EMBARRASSING ME!” so I instead direct him to someplace (ANYplace) away from the dumpster and tell him to put his nice clothes back on. He does it, then goes around a corner, changes back into the rags, and goes up to a woman on the street and starts flirting with her quite outrageously while, politely, she tries not to wrinkle her nose at the smell of garbage emanating from him nor look at his clothes. I give up, sending him home to eat and shower. He pauses at the bathroom mirror to primp. He primps a lot. I send him to bed and he spots the bedroom mirror on the way and starts primping in that, also flirting with his own reflection! Oh Enrique!!!!!

Jennifer, I don’t control at all. I built a beautiful little cottage for her to live in, but Enrique, it seems, is my only game piece here. So I make him visit her. He likes her and is on his best behavior around her. She doesn’t seem to like him much. She’ll visit with him for a little while, but always ends up throwing him out whenever he slips up and starts coming onto her. Guess she’s not that kind of girl. LOL

3. Someone posted an article on Facebook about an atheist church. Still thinking about it. It really does mimic church in the speeches and singing and socializing; it’s just the religion that’s left out. I’m thinking too, that, like church, some people will find themselves being shut out. They explain that its all the parts of church they like with none of the stuff they don’t believe. It’s community. But it has its limits. It must have. I’m an agnostic, for instance, AND I believe in magic and reincarnation and all sorts of things commonly considered fringe. Would I fit? What about people of various religions that are simply tired of hypocrisy, judgement, and dogma? And that got me thinking….

4. I’ve been ranting a lot about Islamists and Iran lately. I should mention here that I do NOT consider Islamists and Iranians interchangeable. More like the one is oppressing the other. I don’t hate Iran or Iranians. I think our cultures are a bit too different to make a good mix when it comes to marriage, but that’s another matter entirely because the worst of that culture difference comes purely from Islamism I think.

If you love someone, you should be able to embrace them for who they are. If you can’t, then you shouldn’t marry them expecting them to change. Throw religion into the mix and geeze…. suddenly it’s not enough for your spouse to be themselves. No. They have to be your religion as well and then they’re not the person you were attracted to in the first place.

5. Someone witnessing my rants assumed a camaraderie with me that I didn’t appreciate. He said that Iran was damned to Hell, that god hated Iranians, and that he was a “true Christian.”

Oh good lord! Have I waxed a bit extremist lately that I am now attracting Christian extremists?

I actually hoped I was reading him wrong so I went to his site to see. What I saw was blog after blog of “God hates” this nationality/religion, “God hates” that, and condemning them all to Hell. He also posted pictures of famine, earthquake, tsunami, and typhoon devastation and says these people shouldn’t be helped because “they’re wicked,” children included, “deserve this suffering,” and “God is punishing them”. Oh. But he loves Jesus and wants to show his love.

Some people show “love” in the darndest ways. It’s been a while since I read the New Testament, but I don’t recall Jesus ever “showing love” to people by saying god hated them and they were all going to hell or refusing kindness to fellow humans. Far from it! He was a high caste Jew and he associated with everyone his religion insisted were low lives. He was kind to everyone except bankers and stone throwers. He said things like, “If someone slaps you, [don't fight them] just turn the other cheek” and “Treat others the way you want to be treated.” He also practiced magic at a very high level; so much so that people called it “miracles” but he told them that they could do this too; that it wasn’t out of their reach and someday they’d do it themselves.

It’s the other stuff taught in churches that I don’t believe… Jesus dying for our sins? No. We are responsible for our own. He appeased a primitive people’s desire for a sacrificial lamb or scapegoat is all. Heaven and Hell? I believe in an afterlife and the eternal soul. I do NOT believe in there being only one physical life and an eternity of suffering or royal treatment for getting it all wrong or all right – as if we would or could. Damnation and condemnation gets thrown around way too liberally there and out of the box/Bible thinking is DISCOURAGED in capital letters. And the people there judge each other both horribly and hypocritically while their real feelings about nearly everything are kept carefully and artificially submerged behind their facades. These are some of the reasons I don’t like being associated with religion.

Meh. I should get to work now.

Good morning!

About Ampbreia

I'm an ex-Pentacostal, ex-Muslim, ecclectic Agnostic with slightly Wiccan leanings. I am not affiliated with any organized religion or political platform, but I do believe in magic and all things wise and wonderful. I work as an admin in a calibration lab. I've published 2 books so far this year: Lost in Foreign Passions: Love and betrayal, passion and loss in the heart of an alien land (a memoir of my time as a Muslimah and living in Iran for a year), written under my previous married name, Debra Kamza, and Dream Lover (a paranormal romance, the tale of witch that summons her favorite character out of a Bewitched spin-off and the actor who plays him as well). I'm constantly writing stories and poems, thoughts and dreams, and quite a few opinions - many of which are not popular but oh well. Bite me. I'm interested in art, animals, the paranormal, and people. I love to dance, all sorts, but have been studying belly dance since 2006 and LOVE it! I love anime too and love dressing up and going to conventions. My writing runs the gummut of historical, science fiction, fantasy, romance, and erotica. Beware: I may not be safe reading for work. Just saying....
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8 Responses to Thoughts before coffee

  1. Are thoughts before coffee better than thoughts after coffee!? ;-) :-)

    I think flight is the best thing to hope for!

    Cool and :-D on your Enrique and Jennifer Sims! Ha! I laughed when I read what you said about them! Did I ever tell you about my JLo dreams? Probably not…ha, they might be best left in my head. :-)

    I think one of the positive things about “church” can be the social aspect…gathering with people of like beliefs and becoming in a sense “a family”…socializing, helping each other in tough times, etc. So I wasn’t surprised when I read a news article on the atheist “church”.

    It’s rare to find a christian church that actually really follows the life and teachings of Jesus. Sad.

    Good, deep, important before-coffee-thoughts…usually before coffee most people are just thinking about getting that first cup of coffee! :-D

    Thanks for this post! You always get me thinking about good things and you make me smile! :-)

    HUGS!!! :-)

    • ampbreia says:

      Tell me about your JLo dreams? I’m desperately curious now. And I don’t know if my thoughts are any better after coffee, but they do seem to come more clearly.

      I don’t really like coffee in point of fact. That why I doctor it all up with flavored creams that my mother (the true coffee connoisseur) calls “pollutants.” It’s really just the kick start I need to wake up sometimes. Coke or tea just won’t do the trick for me.

  2. jr cline says:

    I believe in that magic. Sometimes I can live in it. Sometimes the universe opens up and becomes vast. We’re energy. We’re waves. We’re vibrations. It’s all energy, waves, vibrations. Sometimes I live in it. Other times I forget.
    I guess most magic believers do spellcraft in their own way. Christy and I have been working on some for the last week or so.
    Pick a religion from A to Z. They all have ‘rules’. They all have ‘rituals’. They all have their judgmental, narrow minded, legalistic followers. They all have some magic believers mixed in.

  3. jr cline says:

    I believe in that magic. Sometimes I can live in it. Sometimes the universe opens up and becomes vast. We’re energy. We’re waves. We’re vibrations. It’s all energy, waves, vibrations. Sometimes I live in it. Other times I forget.
    I guess most magic believers do spellcraft in their own way. Christy and I have been working on some for the last week or so.
    Pick a religion from A to Z. They all have ‘rules’. They all have ‘rituals’. They all have their judgmental, narrow minded, legalistic followers. They all have some magic believers mixed in.

    • ampbreia says:

      They all practice magic whether they know it or accept it or not. Some are just more honest and accepting than others are. Rituals, by the way, are very important aspects of magic in that they help formulate the clear visualizations and keep the purpose in mind IF the purpose is known. Some just do it by rote, of course; those ones don’t count. It’s better, if you’re going to do it, that you know exactly what you’re doing.

      Who is Christy?

  4. jr cline says:

    I believe in that magic. Sometimes I can live in it. Sometimes the universe opens up and becomes vast. We’re energy. We’re waves. We’re vibrations. It’s all energy, waves, vibrations. Sometimes I live in it. Other times I forget.
    I guess most magic believers do spellcraft in their own way. Christy and I have been working on some for the last week or so.
    Pick a religion from A to Z. They all have ‘rules’. They all have ‘rituals’. They all have their judgmental, narrow minded, legalistic followers. They all have some magic believers mixed in.

  5. Lori says:

    The more I read your blog the more alike I come to discover we are. You are so right about so many things on your philosophical viewpoints on humans and human nature, as well as their learned behaviors. That is the problem, we are taught from a young age to respect those in authority, albeit teachers, police, parents etal. So we are taught to be sheep when were young and unless we are one of those “outcasts” or “freaks of nature” (what they so liberally call people with their own minds and thoughts) then we fit in and do as everyone else. I speak my mind too, but I’ve learned from experience to speak it in a tactful underlying “code”. So those that are like you will catch on, and you won’t have to deal with the squawkers. Thanks for some fresh thoughts.

    • ampbreia says:

      Yes, I think we are, though certainly more now than we would have been back in Basic. Wish we’d have gotten to know each other back then. Maybe I could have talked you out of going to Iran or marrying the Iranian. Then again, someone else had that chance and she didn’t succeed. I don’t think you’d have judged me so harshly though. When I first joined the Army, any time I mentioned to someone what had happened to me and how I’d lost my son, they wouldn’t believe me about Iran and they’d think I must have been a terrible mother to have my son taken away from me. It took a long time to overcome that stigma. It didn’t make me mad at anyone though; just sad. You know? I’m sure if anyone would really know, you would.

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