Bad kitties, a human trafficker, and Hitler

Sorry, I’m a bit grumpy this morning…

1. My latest HGTV design, Water Ship Down, was just getting beautiful and nearing completion when things started going drastically wrong. First it started misbehaving something fierce and then it stopped doing anything I told it to. I quit in disgust and then, because I don’t know how to really quit, I started a new version of the same theme.

2. When I went to clean the cat boxes before bed, I found that one of the cats (not sure which but I have my suspicions) peed all AROUND both boxes on the linoleum floor and in front of two pieces of furniture. Swearing a blue streak over this while I finished scooping the boxes, I went to grab the scent-killing pet wipes and when I came back, Phoebe was utilizing the most recently scooped box.

I have never so much as scolded them before because I’d assumed their “mistakes” were simply that. But now I knew better and I was PISSED! So I waited until she’d finished than grabbed her by the scruff of the neck and stuck her nose in the pee while scolding her.

Jeb came down to see what she and I both were squalling about even as, released, she ran past him. I told him about the trail of pee and said, “One more slip up and out she goes.”

“How do you know it’s not Cole?”

I didn’t know. I just felt it was Phoebe. I shrugged. “Phoebe will like being outside for a little while. Then if pee shows up in the wrong place again, we’ll know it was really him and out he’ll go. Then Phoebe can come back in until/unless she manages to prove it was actually both of them.”


This morning, there was pee on the floor again and Phoebe went out. Now we’ll see how Cole behaves.

Why do cats have to act this way?

3. When I went to bed, I was nauseous with having been riled up so bad. I don’t handle anger well. You could almost say I start shooting off sparks and then start redirecting that energy wherever I possibly can… Another story for another time. But I couldn’t sleep so I got up to draw and, because I was lonely AND angry, just explored online in general for a while.

On a social networking site out of Seattle, which is close to me, I came across a pimp’s website. He was selling women like commodities and I got the very strong impression that the women he was selling were sex slaves, possibly illegal immigrants he was no doubt offering “protection” to! I wanted to strangle him!

I don’t know how I’d go about proving what I sensed objectively. I trust my instincts, my intuition. I just KNEW it! Which is not, I realize, admissible in a court of law.

Great! Just one more thing to be angry sick about!

The irony of this is that it’s clearly all just business to him. A person can do things that are THAT bad, and still be otherwise likeable on the surface. He wasn’t just another dumb street hood. According to his well-written writings, he was educated, funny, well-spoken, loved music and dancing, and fine art. He was culturally well-rounded enough to fit into the middle and upper classes without a hitch. And yet he could do THIS!!!!

Take a look at His Profile and tell me if you think I’ve got it wrong though. Like maybe I’m seeing red because I’m just generally grumpy?

Can anyone suggest I way to point police attention at him and his site without my having to explain to them why I’m so suspicious of him?

4.  When I was in the Marne Division stationed in Germany back in the 1980s, they strongly encouraged us to watch not only Audi Murphy movies (he having been one of the Marne Divisions most well-known heroes), but also movies about the Third Reich and Hitler’s home movies.  That last showed him joking with friends and family and being very urbane and even likeable.

Likeable.  Hitler.  Like the pimp.

No one is all bad or all good.  People compartmentalize these different facets of themselves.  A lot of this is due directly to either survival needs or cognitive dissonance; much of the latter resulting from religious indoctrination in childhood.

GAH! I’m going to stop writing now until I can write something halfway decent and positive.

Good morning anyway?


About Ampbreia

I'm an ex-Pentacostal, ex-Muslim, ecclectic Agnostic with slightly Wiccan leanings. I am not affiliated with any organized religion or political platform, but I do believe in magic and all things wise and wonderful. I work as an admin in a calibration lab. I've published 2 books so far this year: Lost in Foreign Passions: Love and betrayal, passion and loss in the heart of an alien land (a memoir of my time as a Muslimah and living in Iran for a year), written under my previous married name, Debra Kamza, and Dream Lover (a paranormal romance, the tale of witch that summons her favorite character out of a Bewitched spin-off and the actor who plays him as well). I'm constantly writing stories and poems, thoughts and dreams, and quite a few opinions - many of which are not popular but oh well. Bite me. I'm interested in art, animals, the paranormal, and people. I love to dance, all sorts, but have been studying belly dance since 2006 and LOVE it! I love anime too and love dressing up and going to conventions. My writing runs the gummut of historical, science fiction, fantasy, romance, and erotica. Beware: I may not be safe reading for work. Just saying....
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10 Responses to Bad kitties, a human trafficker, and Hitler

  1. erikamsteele says:

    Must be something in the air. I’m not grouchy, but I am moody.


  2. Everyone has a likable side, which is why the monsters of the world get away with so much, for so long. You won’t hurt anything by directing the website to the police, or to the FBI, in Seattle. I did, years ago, and got a few kiddie porn sites shut down.


    • Ampbreia says:

      Okay… I did it. Took me all day to find an online link for reporting it but finally just did. I’m glad you did too. Monster like these really disturb me. I shudder at what happens to all the people that make the mistake of ever trusting one!


  3. erikamsteele says:

    How could I miss the pimp part? I don’t find it shocking that a “pimp” could fit in with the middle class, come off as charming and likable or any of the such. The middle class and wealthy have the money and power to do whatever they want and get away with it because money talks. People always talk about the depravity of the poor and “uneducated”; those are just the people who are dumb enough to get caught. Pimping on a social network site? He is one of them (the uneducated idiots who get caught).


  4. Hey, Grumpy! I’m Goofy! 😉 😀
    Wow, I’d say all of this would add grumpiness to anyone’s day! Especially #3! I hope you reported his site to the police.


    • Ampbreia says:

      No… not the police. They’re too underfunded to do much these days. I reported it to the FBI instead. Hopefully they will kick some proper ass. Hugs back!


      • You’re right. I shoulda’ realized that. I know a friend who tried to get the local police to help on an identity theft and they were too busy with bigger issues.
        I hope the FBI will kick ass! 🙂


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