Afterlife Thoughts

Many religious people believe that God judges them in the afterlife and assigns them either Heaven or Hell for the rest of their eternity.  Many are of the opinion that it is not so correct action, but correct belief that gets one to Heaven and that incorrect belief, even accompanied by correct action, will get one to Hell.

You get infinite reward or punishment for finite deeds/beliefs.

I once believed that too, back in my days of religion (first Pentecostal Christian, then Shi-ite Muslim), but my eventual reaction to that was if God is really that way about it, then he’s petty, unjust, and not worth worshiping.  Old Testament accounts of God’s behavior just enforced that impression and convinced me that if God was like that, then Christ had absolutely nothing to do with him since Christ is nearly always portrayed as loving, forgiving, just, and easy going.

That whole thought process emerged from religious roots.  That said, it makes perfect sense to me that the highest incidence of the Satanic Church are in the so-called Bible Belt where non-conformists to religious majority or most likely to be sidelined and harassed.  The Satanic Church is not a separate religion from the Christian Church; it’s a direct reaction thereto and therefore merely a sect of Christianity.  Christians will probably hate my saying so, but I’m pretty sure Satanism wouldn’t exist at all if not for the need of some people badgered into religion to rebel. 

Some people can live with the cognitive dissonance caused by inner beliefs contrasting with those imposed from without.  Others can’t.  I couldn’t.  You cram religion down a free spirit’s throat and they will rebel.  Rebellion is what forges sectism in some people while in others, like me, it eventually forges freedom from the box.

It was a long process for me, but living as a Muslimah for a while and seeing what life was really under religion-dominated laws left me with no taste for religion at all.  I found I didn’t need or want anyone to tell me what to do, how to think, and what to believe.  I realized I was slowly but surely forming my own beliefs and religion had nothing to do with it… except to get me started, of course.  You know what I mean.  Right?

My first step away from religion was when my Pentecostal Sunday School teacher kind of drove me away from the church by continually calling me “Tongue of Satan” whenever I questioned anything and finally topped it off by accusing me of witchcraft and preaching “Thou shalt not suffer a witch to live!”

I asked him what constituted witchcraft and he told me it was the expression of any kind of “supernatural” abilities: telepathy, telekinesis, farseeing, that sort of thing.  S’okay, as a teenager, I did actually fit that bill.  In particular, I was very psychic back then.  That’s when I realized he and others like him in the church, were judging me not on whatever I did on purpose, but simply what I was, with or without my trying.  They had the same attitude towards gays and people of other religions, even other sects of their own religion.

I left the church and when I returned just once for a Christmas pageant after I’d begun college, the same Sunday school teacher confronted me again.  This time, he acted friendly at first and asked what I’d been up to.  I told him about going to college and the perfect 4. GPA I was getting.  His response (scowling)? “So education is what corrupted you!  I should have known.”

I gave up trying to talk to him after that.  Apparently, to be educated was to be unholy in his book.

I converted to Islam not long after that, not because I thought it was a better religion, but simply because my teacher in it didn’t demonize me for asking questions.  I didn’t mention to him that I was witch.  He might have demonized me for that. 

He badgered me constantly to convert for him so we could marry.

I was in no hurry to marry, but I was infatuated with him and this seemed so important to him that I figured, why not?  One religion is the same as another, right?

I didn’t find out how much he’d lied about what he taught me or that Islam was NOT like any other religion until after he’d tricked me into going to Iran with him, thinking to entrap me there.

While trapped in Iran and desperate to escape with my baby son, I had my first fully conscious out-of-body experience.  That made some things very clear to me that I would otherwise not have as fully realized:

1.  I was a much, if not MORE, myself outside of my body than in it.  The ramifications for death, meant that there really is no death.  Just because you’re not in your body any longer doesn’t mean your dead or even gone.  We really are eternal beings.

2.  Our physical senses are a very limited portal for our impressions of the world.  Beyond them, nothing is dark, colors are much more intense, and nothing focussed on in oblique from sight, scent, touch, or hearing.  Distance makes no difference.  Everything is readily perceivable.

3.  I did not simply perceive the things I focussed on; I merged with them.  I realized how very much a part of the world, both seen and unseen, I really was.  The night winds, for instance, blew through me rather than against me.  I felt hot and cold as feelings not as comforts or discomforts.  I could take them exactly as they were and love them as they were.  Meh.  Too hard to explain.

4.  And this is even harder to explain: I couldn’t hide from myself.  Could delude myself about anything.  Everything about me and my perceptions were wide open.  I couldn’t lie to myself about anything.

5.  A thought could take me anywhere.  I started rushing toward my beloved full moon before suddenly realizing that I might be leaving my body and my baby son behind forever if I did so.  And with that one frightening thought, I abruptly fell all the way back down into my body with thud, arms flying out on impact, accidentally clubbing my Iranian husband over the head and waking him.  He snarled at me for that, took his bedding, and moved out into the hall for the rest of the night.

This interested me in later times to understand my own experience.  To verify it.  To think of it in terms other than religion, though, of course, I looked at religion to explain it as well.  But religion only talked of Heaven or Hell or Nirvana and Nirvana made more sense than either of the former but not enough sense.  As for Jihadis getting Paradise and 72 perpetual virgins in the afterlife after committing mass-murder suicide in the cause of religion, that was totally unbelievable, even insulting, to my mind.  If the god of the Bible was petty, Allah was positively DEMONIC to reward such bad conduct.

Yes, those were still very religious judgements on my part.  I know.  Religion is full of judgement but not necessarily common sense there.  Some things don’t make sense from a purely practical outer view.  Anyway…  I read loads about ancient aliens and their involvement with the human race and that felt a lot truer to me but it didn’t really explain the spiritual aspects of reality so much as those that are almost wholly physical.  Yes, the Ellohim probably were ancient alien geneticists, our sub-creators.  But they were created too and probably have a subspace reality of their own as surely as we do.

I found more that made sense to me in reading the communications of souls speaking from the other side as well as sidewise from Wiccan ideas of reality:

1.  All things are manifestations/expression of an infinite Mind.

2.  We are all part of our Creator.

3.  Good and Evil as we know it are manifestation that only make sense in the physical where they specifically affect our well-being and survival here but are often used deceitfully here.  People being told that doing harmful/hateful/destructive things to themselves or others is somehow a good thing or that helpful/nurturing/creative things is somehow bad.  From the viewpoint of those on the other side, experience of any kind is still a learning experience and they won’t tag it as good or bad BUT…

4.  There is a kind of judgement of our actions in the physical.  We judge ourselves.  We can’t help it.  Everyone experiences something called “Life Review” after they cross back over the great divide.  They experience everything they have done to others, will enjoy the good and feel sick at the bad.  Good and bad as we perceive it here in terms of its effect on ourselves and others. 

5.  Love is unconditional on the other side but as long as we are tangled up still in what we have done on earth, we will shut ourselves off from that.

6.  Those who have been very hurtful to others feel all that hurt as if it were being done to them.  They can’t not feel it.  We are all a part of each other.  In the physical, we can hide from that fact.  In the spiritual, there is no hiding.  Those suffering the hurts they have done are in a very dark place.  They don’t have to be.  But they have wrongs to redress and hurts to heal from before they can join the greater body of ultimate reality. 

I’m still exploring a body of information on this topic.  Still a lot to learn about it.  Details.  I need to find the right questions to ask.  But Heaven, Hell, or Nirvana?  That won’t cut it.  Not for me.

I know.  I’m being fuddy duddy about this.  I don’t want pat answers of platitudes.  I want what makes sense to me.  Answers that have pattern verification.  I’m big on finding the patterns in things in order to pick out larger pictures.

I think we all need to do that.  I think our minds, being a part of our Creator, are powerful enough to create unending realities for ourselves.  Just some realities are more sustainable than others.  Does that make sense?

Found this regarding terrorists in the Afterlife:  It’s not much, but it does intrigue.  There’s a book I’ve been meaning to read about that:


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A War Between Good and Evil

Whether Obama admits it or not, we are at war extremist Islam, Islam the way Mohammad himself practiced it; Islam the way Al Qaeda, Taleban, Boka Haram, Hamas, the Muslim Brotherhood, and ISIL practice it. It is a war of ideologies; of good and evil; creation and destruction; harmony and disharmony, progressiveness and backwardness, freedom and oppression… and it has very physical attributes.

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The enemy lives for death. It lives to steal the lives and goods of innocents belonging to other faiths and non-faiths. Some it beheads. It puts the heads of adults on pikes along roadside. It puts the heads of children on pikes that are placed around parks where these children used to play. It rounds up and shoots long lines of helpless captives whose bodies are let to fall and rot in ditches.

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Others, mostly women and little girls, it sells into sex slavery. It shoots missiles into civilian populations, targeting children more than anyone. Its own children are either trained to be mass murderers like their parents or used as body shields the terrorists stand behind. It stones people to death. I don’t care what the crime is. Don’t even try to excuse it to me. The only crime worthy of such a cruel death is stoning someone else to death.


I refer to the enemy as IT because it is comprised of anti-humans, the enemy of all of Mankind, Satan Personified: Islam the way Al Qaeda, Taleban, Boka Haram, Hamas, the Muslim Brotherhood, and ISIL, etc. It was created by parents and clerics that taught hateful things to all in their thrall; to hate persons of other cultures and religions; to denigrate them and women too; to enslave; to rob, to humiliate, to kill without mercy.


The Koran has in it peaceful verses and those that are all about violence and depravity.

Born Muslims have no choice but to choose Islam as their religion. Their own people will kill them if they don’t. So good people simply pick out the peaceful/progressive verses of the Koran and do their best to ignore and deny the rest.

Bad people, of course, do the opposite; choosing the violence and depravity… and then they put the pressure on good people to do the same. The argument is probably something along the lines of god’s law being above human law or sensibilities. I’m not sure. Whatever it is they do, they do lure many over the line of humanity and compassion into pure darkness and evil.


My hope is that American Muslims would not be so duped that way. My hope is that American Muslims migrated here from Dar Islam because our way of life here, backed up by our American Constitution, assures them a life of liberty and justice for all. I would hope, too, that when they got their American citizenship, they understood the need for them, for ALL of us, to sincerely uphold our constitution and fly our flag with pride and gratitude.


If not, they don’t belong here… those, for instance, like a certain Muslim community in Deerborn MI, that rallies for Sharia Law to replace democracy. We’re really more of a republic here, but Sharia Law is diametrically opposed to our constitution, therefore any talk of bringing Sharia Law to the U.S. is a conflict of interests and seditious in its very nature. 

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Say all your want about our president or government practices and no matter how bad it is, most Americans are not likely to mind.  But when you threaten our constitution, you threaten all we hold dear and you are likely to find yourself threated in turn.  The proposal of replacing our constitution isn’t just seditious, it goes against all of our civil and basic human rights and we won’t take kindly to that.

Support our constitution, ban Sharia, or leave the U.S. and your American citizenship behind. Choose now. With the infamy extremist Islam is so rapidly accruing via its threats against our great nations and the horrors it commits in the nations it inflicts, your time for choosing sides is running out. An America under Sharia law wouldn’t be a decent place to live any longer. It would be just another 3rd world Islamist hell hole and no American worth their salt would tolerate that happening here.  It would also be very bad for those who mistakenly opt for the hell hole.

For those who have never read the whole Constitution and the Bill of Rights within it, I’ve listed just what’s pertinent to the discussion, where Sharia would run counter to it:

The 1st Amendment protects the people’s right to practice religion, to speak freely, to assemble (meet), to address (petition) the government, and of the press to publish.  This also means you can’t interfere with anyone’s else’s right to do likewise.  Your freedom stops where mine begins and vis-versus.  No killing or charging tribute (jizya) to those who are not of your religion.  No blasphemy laws.  No silencing of constructive criticisms or free speech or publishing period.


The 8th Amendment guarantees that punishments will be fair, and not cruel, and that extraordinarily large fines will not be set.  Sharia laws are insanely cruel, unfair against women and minorities, and often way out of proportion for the crime so none can apply.

The 13th Amendment abolished slavery in the entire United States.  The Koran allows slavery and it is still practiced throughout Dar Islam…. 


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…We do NOT.  If you’re found holding a slave, you will go to jail like Saudi Princess Meshael Alayban did.  She might have gone to prison as well had she not been able to pay the 5 million dollar bail.  Even so, she had to stick around to answer the charges against her and her slave was freed from her since humans are not the property of other humans here.

meshaelThe 19th Amendment ensures that gender cannot be used as a criteria for voting.  Sharia treats women as half persons under the law.  We’ll have none of that here, thank you very much.

Other rights guaranteed by our constitution (in no particular order) that Sharia also runs counter to:

Retaliation is impermissible.  No eye for an eye here.  You leave it to proper law processes.

No one, not even your parents or spouse, is allowed to disable/remove/limit any right, privilege, or immunity given to you under our laws and constitution unless you are a minor, which by default shall be any individual under the age of 18 unless the disabilities of minority are extended or reduced by court order.

Unimpeded devotion or practice of religion, not preferentially supported by public funds.  

Not to be subject to meddling without a clear, present, and compelling public need.  For instance…

  • Practice of a profession or occupation, marriage, procreation, and acceptance or denial of medical prevention or treatment, except prevention of contagious diseases
  • Not to have some accorded special privileges or protections that favor them over the rest of the people, in ways not essential to the performance of public duties
  • Not to be enslaved or submitted to peonage except as punishment for a crime, but subject to militia, jury, witness, and other public duty.
  • Not to be impeded or punished for voting if one is a citizen and resident on grounds of race, color, creed, previous servitude, gender, age 18 or above, or failure to pay a tax.
  • Not to be neglected or abused while in custody.
  • Not to be denied any right, privilege, or immunity for failure to have or present a name or other form of identification.
  • Not to be deported without proof that one has not been born or naturalized as a citizen, unless one is born to a person not subject to the allegiance of the United States, such as a foreign diplomat or an invader.
  • Not to be subject to penalty for not doing something, such as not paying a tax, if government agents refuse to allow it to be done, such as not accepting payment of a tax.
  • Not to deny relief from some government action for lack of an appropriation to process the application for relief, or having an official to receive the application, and to fail to recognize the demand for such relief as being granted by default.
  • Not to be required to procreate or to refrain from procreating.
  • Not to have imposed upon one any unwanted belief or expression of devotion or to be pressured into conformity with such


Neither Sharia law, government, spouse, nosey neighbors, or parents are not allowed to meddle here.

Oh yes, and American men and women have equal rights, not like the disparity of such found under Sharia. 


Be American or be Islamist. You can’t be both.  You really can’t.  It’s a clear conflict of interests.


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Mom’s new baby

My mother called me to say she had a new baby… and why shouldn’t she?  She’s in her 70s.  It’s not too late to have another baby, right?

I was grinning as she told me.  She was so in love with her new little one, the image of him came clear to my mind.  She said his name was Scamp.  Then she came over with him to show me in person.

He is, without a doubt, the cutest little pomeranian puppy I have ever seen:

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He’s also very cuddly, brave, and full of kisses.  Oh… and that’s my not-so-brave baby guinea pig Betsy hiding under him in the 2nd to the last picture.

When Mom and I and Scamp went out to look at RV rentals, the salesmen were comically all over little Scamp.  Could have sworn he was a celebrity.  They all wanted to hold him and have their pictures taken with him.  LOL.  

Well who could possibly blame them?

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The Snohomish Garden Show Tour

I was late putting this up.  I went to this with my mother and sister on July 27th or thereabouts and took lots of pictures and I’ve waited until now to bother showing them off.  Shocking, I know.  I took 142 pictures thinking all the while I was being very restrained and taking hardly any.  But I’ll spare you by posting somewhat less than that.  I hope you don’t mind.

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On Being a Hater

I stand accused of being a hater and a harpy because I hate certain crimes committed by certain people. Okay fine. Allow me to list them:

  1. I hate the people that chant “Death to America!” in big rallies where they burn American flags and trample effigies of Uncle Sam. I’m American so I take that personally.
  2. Same for the people that chant “Death to Jews/Zionists!” Jews are human and so am I (albeit not Jewish) so I take this personally as well.
  3. I hate people that fire rockets into civilian populations constantly and at random just to kill Jews because they hate them and then use their own children to stand between them and the return defensive fire that will naturally erupt.
  4. I hate the people that live for death and killing, mass murder-suicides, instead of life. They seem quite anti human to me. Call me racist for it if that floats your macabre little boat.
  5. I hate the people that regard the American flag as a threat to them when hung in American neighborhoods. Are you kidding me? If you don’t like our flag, what are you doing here? Get out!
  6. I hate the people that preach hatred of America and send/fly planes loaded with innocents to crash into buildings full of innocents, murdering close to 3,000 people.
  7. I hate men that treat women as 3rd class citizens and worse. I’m a woman. Of course I have a problem with that.
  8. The hate the biddies in black who try to dictate my dress code as a woman and threaten me with violence or arrest if I don’t comply all the way. Excuse me if I don’t like being threatened of forced. How unreasonable, I know.
  9. I hate to see parents that force their little girls to marry old pedophiles and then “honor” kill them if they fight the arrangement. I was a little girl once. I don’t approve of little girls being sexually abused or murdered. How unfair of me, I know.
  10. I hate the cry-babies that throw violent tantrums and death threats around over cartoons for flipping sake or discussions of their bad conduct – truth, not libel. Please. Can you really not handle the truth? Do you think flipping out over it is really going to improve your image? Seriously?
  11. I hate the monsters that harass Jews and Christians and other non-Muslims.
  12. I hate the monsters that behead, crucify, stone, hang, torture, rape, or otherwise violate Jews, Christians, non-Muslims, women, or anyone at all. It’s ANTI-Human.

If you don’t commit these heinous crimes against humanity, I don’t hate you even if you do share the same religion with these despicable criminals. But I will look awfully funny at you if you support or excuse them in any way and I’m going to laugh if you try and tell me that their religion is peaceful or that they don’t belong to your religion at all.

It’s not what you say you are that really matters. I’m sure you can find the way to make your religion back you up either way. I’ve seen it happen countless times even in certain religion that its not supposed to be possible in. You can make good of it or evil. Your choice. But what you DO matters. Actions speaks way louder than words.

If so many people didn’t do so many bad things in the name of a certain religion (or ANY religion), then there would be nothing bad to say about it.


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Lake of Fire


Dark waters will engulf Islam,

Dar Islam will become a lake of fire,

Boiling and burning their shrivelled souls,

Karmic recompense for countless mass murders,

the heads of innocents they’ve taken,

Their inhumane practices and barbaric cruelties,

All the petty misogyny,

The slavery they call “Submission,”

The terrorism they have the audacity to call “Peaceful,”

Forced conversions and rioting…

It’s enough!

Time to end Islam and bury it!

Death to Islam!

Death to its evil sham!

The Gate to Hell is in Turkey.

Your Mohammad awaits you there.


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Nebulous these seeds,

We clutched them in our hands,

Soft specks of down as much as pristine specks of life.

Consciousness condensed into light,

Then down to solid form,

Like diamonds afloat in ethereal space.

Time, the illusion, the matrix for planting in.

I turned my head and tipped my hand.

Diamonds falling in slants of light,

In waters unfathomably deep.

The stars we see,

The greater beyond,

Our wholeness of being,

Our garden of shadows and light,

Our Selves.

All that is created begins with a thought

An expression,

Slowly solidified into matter,

Finessed in its grace and explored into greater diversity.

Gems in the moonlight,

If only they themselves understood

About the hollow moon,

Impossible artifice,

Blithely accepted

As part of this world.

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